Is gravity really deceleration, rather than acceleration?

According to Einstein’s equivalence principle:

“we … assume the complete physical equivalence of a gravitational field and a corresponding acceleration of the reference system. That is, being on the surface of the Earth is equivalent to being inside a spaceship (far from any sources of gravity) that is being accelerated by its engines.”

Therefore, the gravitational effect that I experience when standing on the Earth’s surface is the Earth’s acceleration into me. However, whenever I sit quietly and meditate on this experience, it always feels to me that rather than the Earth accelerating into me, I am accelerating into the Earth, and that the Earth is resisting my acceleration, thus slowing me down, i.e. it is actively decelerating my personal space-time momentum.

The degree of pressure I experience as a result of this resistance manifests itself as my weight.

My personal space-time line has been very much determined by the curvature of space-time caused by the mass of the Earth. This curvature has me hurtling through space-time towards the centre of the Earth, a journey I cannot complete owing to the resistance created by the Earth’s surface.

However, the Earth’s space-time line has it hurtling through space-time in orbit around the Sun. Therefore, my space-time direction is different to the Earth’s, and so at the point where these two space-time lines intersect, some of the speed of my space time-line is redirected by the Earth. In so doing, the primary direction of my space-time line momentum towards the Earth’s core is decelerated.

Hence, gravity would be a deceleration rather than an acceleration as argued by Einstein?

(I’ll probably have to come back and edit this at some point once I’ve thought more about it. However, for now, I’m going to continue enjoying a glass of wine late at night whilst contemplating the experience of my own weight, thus exciting myself with the idea of me continually trying to accelerate into the Earth at the universal speed limit as if I am some form of human projectile!)